This will be my last post for this blog. Its been so long since I've posted anything I almost forgot I had the blog! I decided I needed to end it on a happy post and luckily for me, I can do just that.
I look back at the all the sad posts I wrote after Jonas died and I am not that person anymore. I have changed so much. I was sad. I was depressed. I was broken.
I. Am. Not. Broken.
I have found myself. I have goals and ambitions. I am pursuing a degree in social work at Weber State University and even with the stress of balancing three boys and school, I really do enjoy it. I have found joy in exercising and after two years of hard work I have lost 45 pounds! I look back and can't believe I had let myself go like that. Depression does so many rotten things to your body, mind and soul. Exercise has become a passion. It makes me happy and I love the way I feel.
The biggest turning point in my journey was when I began to date again. Since I met Jonas when I was 16, I really wouldn't say I was much of an experienced dater in the first place and having to start over at the age of 35 was really scary! I met an amazing man in January 2014 and I have fallen head over heels in love with him. He is wonderful man and he makes me so completely happy! Being loved by a partner is needed in our lives. We are not meant to be alone. I don't want to do it alone and I have found such great joy in being with Brad. Now...figuring out how to blend a family....that is rough!! One day...when we take that next step into marriage, maybe I will start a new blog. A blog on the craziness of a blended family. I look forward to that day with great anticipation. For now, we are getting to know each other and letting our kids get to know each other. Love is grand. Love is work...but it is worth it.
I am moving forward in this crazy journey called life and I am excited about my future. Life is so much better when you can say you are truly happy... and I am.
