14 years and 1, 487 photos

 I have 1, 487 photos in a special folder on my computer. Some of just his hands, some side views, some of him in the background....but ALL of Jonas. Will it ever be enough? I doubt it. I have more in my photo albums. I haven't counted those yet, but one day I will scan them all and put them in my collection. My priceless precious collection of pictures. The pictures tell a story and oh how I wish I had more! Oh how I wish I had every precious moment captured in a picture.

Mr. & Mrs. Jonas Webster

  Fourteen years ago on June 26, 1997 I married the love of my life. We were married in the Salt Lake Temple on a beautiful hot sunny day and pronounced husband and wife at 9:20 AM (I just found that in my journal. Joe's bishop noted the time for us.) After the wedding ceremony we had pictures and then went to the Olive Garden for our wedding luncheon. Sadly, I don't remember much about the luncheon. I did write about it in my journal and I said there were lots of people and the food was delicious.

We had bought a condo in May that we had been fixing up and moving our things into. Neither of us had actually moved in yet. So after the luncheon we went to our condo to get some "rest". I will just leave it at that. :)

Our reception was at Canterbury Reception Center in Bountiful. I wrote in my journal how beautiful everything was and that I was so happy with the way things turned out. I remember how bad my back hurt after standing in line from 6:30 to almost 9:30! The reception was supposed to end at 8:30 but we had so many people waiting in line that it took that long to get everyone through. If I could do it all again I would never ever have a line! Why didn't we just dance and mingle? (You get so much wiser with age and experience!) So by the time we got all the people through the line there weren't very many people left to see us cut the cake, throw the flower bouquet, and catch the leg garter. I am sitting here wondering why we didn't do all that earlier in the night? I think because it was the first wedding for my parents and Joe's parents. We were all so inexperienced at this thing! But it was still a beautiful perfect day.

We didn't get to the Anniversary Inn until 11:00 that night. Jonas insisted on going to a car wash so he could spray his jeep off from all the "decorations" that were put on his car. I am pretty sure I was irritated that he just didn't want to wait until the morning! But we finally arrived and realized how starving we both were. We ordered domino's pizza and then went straight to sleep..... (wink wink).

 Jesse Person, Tyler Webster, Grandpa Fred Todd, Grandma Veryle Todd, Jonas, & Brittney. Four of these six people are now angels in Heaven. (Jesse, Grandpa, Grandma, Jonas)

Grandpa Bud and Grandma Alberta Webster. Grandpa Bud is also an angel in heaven...

It has been really hard to sit here and remember all the details of our wedding day. It makes my heart hurt to know that Jonas will no longer be here with me to celebrate the day we got married. We were so young and in love on that day. We definitely had our struggles through the years, but through each trial our love continued to grow deeper and I can say with confidence that on the day Jonas died we were very much in love. I know he loved me and I loved him. If I knew 14 years ago that I would be grieving for my husband on this day would I go through it all again? Definitely. To have great pain means I had great love. I would definitely do it all again. Although, had I known I only had less than 14 years to be with him I would have tried much harder to show my love and appreciation more often. I would have forgot the small irritations and focused more on making us a happy family. BUT....."should of's" will get me nowhere. They will only get me stuck in the mud. So I will stop and just focus on the 13 1/2 years of good memories I have. I love you Joe! Happy Anniversary.